I never found it easy to belong. My parents had an unconventional marriage for their generation. It wasn’t arranged. Both came from different parts of the country and spoke different languages. As a result, our family never fitted into any group of people governed by caste or state. Growing up, I always leaned more towards the culture followed by my Dad’s side of lineage. But I always found myself on the edge the minute I stepped out of home.

Despite being a girl, I always lacked the uncanny ability to plan mind games women naturally play. it took me years to learn how to make friends with others from my own gender. But truth be told, I haven’t mastered the art.

As a result, I spent a better part of life not being able to fit in. Simply because I was made different. The only thing commendable about my personality is that I stand for myself. No matter what. I never conform to generally acceptable norms in order to feel accepted. I do what makes me comfortable and at peace.

After years of failing to fit in, I have come to the conclusion that I am enough and I am unique. I don’t need to fit it. What belongs to me shall flow in life like it always has. I have chosen to always have my back. And to claim my happiness.

P.S. when you are trying so desperately to fit in, you forget you are not a factory product. You cannot be like everyone else. You can vibe only with your tribe. Stay calm and you will find your kind. Don’t try to fit in. Don’t fake it in order to feel accepted. Stay strong and believe in yourself. Those who are meant to stay in life will stay. Others will drop off. Remember everything is happening for your good.