Some days, I look at the balance sheet of life and realize I may have made some decisions I am not proud of. I may have felt a certain way that takes me on a guilt trip. But aren’t we supposed to learn from mistakes? Are we chasing perfection?

Life is all about growth. As long as we are aware of our thoughts and actions, it is possible to reconcile any wrong doing by asking for forgiveness, if we wronged another; by understanding ourselves better and forgiving ourselves too, for being ignorant, naive, immature and at times, for simply being a pawn of the universal plan.

Looking back, it feels like I wish I had reached here sooner. In this clarity of thought. In this crystal clear understanding of how fluid life is. And how, every situation, experience and action or inaction is bringing us closer to exactly where we are meant to be. But then again, one can’t rush into knowledge or awareness. One cannot brush aside lessons one needs to learn in order to understand themselves or life. So, do I have any regrets?

Not quite. I could have done some things differently. Sure. But I wasn’t the same person back then that I am today. And life seems so much bigger and fuller in the larger scheme of things than growing richer, more beautiful, more affluent or trying to amass more of everything. Life seems so generously giving to each one of us, exactly what we need, when we need it. It is us that analyze some blessings as a curse, simple because of our skewed or limited worldly understanding of existence. We seem to find purpose in a limited sense of living through material progress. And although there is nothing wrong with doing so, there comes a time when we question who are we really? And why is all this paraphernalia so important?

It was a rhetorical question. Each one needs to find answers of their own.

P.S. As long as we grow in awareness, life is good. It is like learning new syllabus and getting tested on it, until we reach a point where it becomes second nature. The best part about life and learning is that, not matter how much we regret, making some mistakes was part of the plan. It is what we learnt from making the mistake that matters. Learning to let go, whether mistakes or the regret of committing them is an even bigger learning. So why this life or its learnings at all?